Little Thoughts

怎么总觉得网络世界的你比较热情呢？当我们碰面的时候你顶多只对我微笑，话都不多说几句。我该怎么办？我不像我们只维持着这样的关系。 我应该主动和你说话吗？可是我害怕你会觉得我烦，而且我也没有那个勇气。 可是总不能时常都在远处很花痴的望着你吧？ 朋友们，可以告诉我怎么办吗？=(

First monthly test for Form 4, was finally over!!!  But now, we all are worrying about our results, especially for Additional Mathematics. I feel sorry and guilty to face my Add. Maths teacher :x The few last questions, simultaneous equations, most of them I don't know how to solve. I even left one question blank!!!! It was BLANK !! OMG The first time I leave my paper blank! I think, my Add Maths teacher will feel very disappointed to me. Sorry, teacher. I don't know how to face you :'( And so for other subjects. sigh* I think this is the worst exam I ever did. Alright, stop talking about the monthly test. It's no use to talk about since it's over, right? Be happy~ * I think I'll cry when get the results. So, please do leave me alone if it is happen. --sigh for the first monthly test-- 

You,  are not replying my message.  I already waited for your reply for more than 12 hours. I bet you guys know what is the feeling for waiting someone's reply, aren't you? I gave myself many excuses that why you didn't reply me.  Because you were busy doing things? Because your phone was out of credits?  Because your phone has expired? But I know all these reasons were just bluffing myself.  是在自欺欺人，对吧？ Perhaps you don't wanna reply me because I'm annoying.  But, I bet you know too, the feeling when ignored by someone you love.  You'll feel hurt, you'll feel sad, and,  you'll feel down (a.k.a emo)  So, please, don't ignore me. Please.... I really do hope study can distract myself from thinking of you.  but, I miss you all the time.  I fail to do that.  不管是忙碌或空闲，都会让我想起你。 You are just too special for me. ♥ This is what always appeared in my mind,  what if you leave the school? I gon...

最近发现了一部台湾校园爱情偶像剧 --《爱似百汇》 故事概要 -- 一位生活及长相都平凡到不能再平凡的的女大生-胡小风 ( 喻虹渊)  ，在某天人生中突然闯进了如太阳、月亮一般耀眼的堂兄弟大业 ( 辰亦儒)  与阿一 ( 炎亚纶) ，从此人生开始不平凡的冒险。命运的门铃，唤醒三个人的初恋恋曲，到底什麼是爱情？小风、大业、阿一，三个对爱情懵懵懂懂，对友情、亲情无法取舍的多角关系，彼此之间，看似单向无解，却又充满无限的可能。 此外, 我发现这部剧的男主角之一 --  炎亚纶，超帅的!!!!! ♥ 一部蛮不错的戏剧. 我觉得, 这部戏的剧情和我的情况有点像. Hmmm.... 就觉得这部戏的剧情很真实. 很帅, 对吧? :P 这部戏的片尾曲也很不错哦! 飞轮海 -- 误会  说到这部戏剧和我的情况有点像, 就是时间来的不对.  那时候, 我不知道该怎么面对他, 因为我心里已经有了另外一个人.  他对我这么好, 我会觉得很愧疚的.  所以, 那时候我会不知不觉的有一种要避开他的感觉.  他坐在我旁边, 我不敢和他说话, 甚至不敢正视他的眼睛.  如果回到那时候, 或许我会接受他的关心, 接受他对我的好, 但不会在一起.  因为, 我真正喜欢毕竟的不是他.  我很自私, 对吧?  我希望有人会关心我, 会对我好...  其实，被喜欢的感觉还不赖嘛!  不过后来当他说他对我已经没感觉了,  虽然有点失落, 但也蛮庆幸他可以把我放开.  因为我知道这是一段不会有结果的恋情.  或者是说, 连我自己都不知道又没有结果.  就算你牢牢的守候着, 也不一定有结果.  我不想伤害到你,  我不想我们做不到朋友.  现在, 看到你幸福的样子, 真替你高兴! :) 要好好珍惜哦!  喜欢你, 已成了事实.  是一个不能改变的事实.  我,  不想失去你. ♥  

要是我喜欢的人不是你, 而是我其中一个男生朋友， 那至少我和他相处的时间会长一些， 那至少我和他的回忆会多一些， 那至少我不会有事无事都想见你， 那至少我不会害羞的和他打招呼， 那至少我还可以暗示她我喜欢他， 那至少我不会那么辛苦， 可是偏偏就让我喜欢上你。。。

我的心， 碎了...  看见你和她聊天， 虽然就只有那几句话， 就是那几句话,  失到我醋意大发.  虽然我知道你们只是朋友,  就只是普通的朋友,  我的心, 还是酸酸的.  或许是我自己的问题,  自寻苦恼 >< 或许是我自己太敏感,  真的是太敏感了!!!  或许是我自己太愚笨,  因为我喜欢上你 或许我早就该放弃你,  这段感情是不会有结果的 或许。。。 You didn't even care of my feeling :(  Can't you just treat me as you treat your friends?  Can't you just treat me as a friend?  Just a friend, that's all I want. CAN'T YOU???   </3  

When I saw the title, I thought of one of my teachers said, " Don't know how spell D.I.E." We were LOL when heard someone told us. xD Okay, back to the topic. As you guys know, after Form 3 and Form 5 having their intervensi, it comes Form 4 monthly test. I really don't know how could I face the exams. Those subjects are too hard to understand. They're like, strangers for me. =\ I don't know them, but they know me. Scary~~~ And all of them are needed to memorise. I'm wondering I should brush up those subjects in this holidays or just let it. I don't even have the mood to study!!! Argh~!! I rather have PMR again than sitting for this monthly test... Really gonna die for the coming test :x  Let's pray for Japan and other countries which hit by tsunami. May God bless the victims.